Extra! Extra! (2:20 AM)
091209 marks the end of my 9 week BMT life. I've made really good friends, underwent very positive changes I feel in myself. oh well, at least I didn't feel that BMT suck. in fact it was fun.
i've picked up skills, observed and learnt, advised on what to improve on to be a better soldier.
no matter where I'm posted to, I just like to prove people who look down on others wrong. I want to make an impact in lives of others as a commander. I'll miss my BMT mates. :)
24km route march, APACHE platoon 2 almost a silent march. I agree we're pretty determined since we finished it without much cheer, but I thought it'd be more fun to do all the cheering. I respect people who always lead cheers, like John Goh and Kai En. It is to keep morale of the soldiers high.
During the march, some peers fall back, some fall out. most importantly, you gotta encourage them, correctly. Don't emphasise by asking them not to give up when they don't intend to, because you might inculcate wrong indications to the vulnerable minds during marches. push them, tell them it's nothing compared to whatever shit they've been through. Be there for your mates. I've always loved army because you know someone is there to back you up no matter what. Someone there to remind you about almost everything, gets punished with you when you forget something. That's something even blood brothers don't do.
on the non-military side.
things are getting difficult to cope with. i know you're there for me. it's hard, i get pretty emotional even after lights off in the army at times. i couldn't fall asleep.
i dont know how long i'll take to move on
WHAT IS PRIDE?
PRIDE IS STRENGTH.
- Sylvester
